I have gotten very busy with the kids and the gym and dont get on as much as i would like to. I decided to combine my WL journal with my Life journal.

You can find my new journal @ rescuingme.bravejournal.com

God Bless

Chrystal

Cant beleve this much time has flown by since i last posted. Turns out the more i move the less time i have for the computer. Bittersweet

We had a great resurrection day, everyone got w good water bottle and a electronic step thing (forget what they are called) Even the boys got one. Day before yesterday i did 6105 steps. Yesterday I did 9734! Got to tell you my back and legs and feet where so achy by 3 in the afternoon. Man getting to 10k is kicking my butt. Which is really sad becuase it just points out how much i dont move around on a daily basis. Those two days where chore days so im going to have to step it up

Other then that things are going good, i kicked the soda again and taking in my water. Going threw fast food withdrawls, ugh! Wish i had never eaten the stuff but that would go way back to when i was a little girl and gramma use to take me to mcd's all the time and my step dad worked at dominos so we had free pizza alot. Well we are not going to the same to our kids, I thank god they love salad and vegetables and praying its notas hard for them to not have fast food as it is for me and chirs.

Ryleigh is almost 100% weaned so I can really get started on what  and how much i intake calorie wise and get things back to normal

Today was a great day! After my last post I stayed pissed off and forced myself to take the time in the morning to look at myself (in healthy way) put on some makeup and do something with my hair other then pull it back while its wet so i dont have to look at myself. And in anger I was determined to move so i did the shopping by myself and lugged all the heavy stuff from costco into the apt myslef, man did i get hot and my face turn red , lol. well not only sad but funny, i mean come on i am so out of it physically i have a workout brining in grocercies LOL. K so that there tells me alot. So last night i got the kids to bed on time did my chores and felt real good. Me and hubby pc gamed for a couple of hours and went to bed. Well i was feeling so good hubby got to too, if you know what i mean We both woke up feeling great and rested that we got all the kids and walked tot he park played a little and walked home.

Now that walk was almost to tuff but it sure did feel good. It took 10 minutes to get there and 10 minutes back. So together as a family we were active for a straight half hour. We couldnt stay long cause chris had to go to work but it was a lot of fun. Next time we will have to use the double stroller though,our 3 yr old made it there and played but couldt do the walk home

My hubby is about 40lbs overweight, he looks good because he is 6'2", but its the physical part that he feels it with a lack of energy and fatigued all time, so we decided as a family we will do this together. Not only gives us even more time as a family but we are leading  a healthy, active  lifestyle we want our children to live with there children and so on.

Its not about diets, and missing out. Its about a healthier and happier life.

Tomorrow we are planning if its atleast 75 out and sunny we will take a walk around the complex and head to the pool

ok havent been to curves since like almost 3 weeks now!! how do i let this happen, i do so good then BAM im off again! well i have a few reasons and many excuses! Im gratefull i havent put anything back on but i havent gone anywhere either! i am so tired of feeling uncomfortable in my skin! this isnt even about feeling embarassed to go in public or what people think anymore cause really i am married to a loving husband and have 3 beautiful children so I DONT GIVE A CRAP! What i am tired of is sweating under my boobs! feeling like im smothering myself when im wearing pants! tired of the lack of energy to keep up with my kids, the headaches, the back aches, the fatigue! ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!! And most importantly im tired of looking at myself, i look tired, unhealthy and sick. 78lbs thats it, that NOTHING!! I can do this! im tired of saying wanting and wishing blah blah blah. So since my number 1 motivator seems to be looking at myslef and i avoid it at all cost im gonna start looking! Hubby is going to take pitcures and im gonna put one by the toilet, on the fridge, next to the computer and one where we homeschool. I need to take a good long hard look at what i have done to myself and do something about it.

I now know after feeling ashamed, and hurt and guilty what i needed to do is get PISSED OFF and everytime i look at myself i DO!!

I CAN do this!! I WILL do this!

Ok well havent made it to curves in a week and didnt get a call about the job there either. Which is ok if that was in gods plan it would of happend. It has been rainy and glumy here so i feel very yuck! i NEED SUN!! there is NO sun here, not like in AZ you would think though. This is our first winter here in nevada so i dont know if this is the norm or not. All I know is I need some sun. I now know what my aunt was talking about with her needing sun. she lives in washington.

Hubby's hours should settle down now since the holidays are over. I will be so happy to get back on track. Tomorrow my goal is to walk atleast a mile if i do nothing else.

Good news is I am getting better at getting the water in. Nearsing my 126 oz mark for the day but a counter top water cooler to help with that

Still cannot find the charger cord for my camera so still no pictures. I have a weigh in coming up so I will update stas then.

Ok so my first week back at curves my monthly friend came for a visit after 6 months of nursing. anyways got there 3 times, so this week NADA!! There are no excuses SO if my lazy butt for whatever reason can not get in the car and drive 5 miles to curve i need to atleast work out in the gym here. I have decided to at a fast pace walk, then jog then cool down for one mile on the treadmill. need to keep my heart rate in the burning fat zone, and work on the ab machines and the pec (booobies) machine before stratching and calling it a day.

My problem now is motivation, somedays i am just out of it and its mainly becuae i didnt do what i was suppose to do the night before, stay up late, eat late( sucker for jumbo jacks with secret sauce and two tacos) soecially sonce hubby gets off at twn and brings home dinner and of course i am up waiting and who can say no YEAH that right I CAN!! I need to say NO!!! besides that only happens once or twice a week. still its to many times and too late at night. Why is it so hard to do something for yourself, i am reading this book called the one time on task manager. It actually applies to every aspect of your life not just if your a manager. Anywho I am just like bob in that book, the last minute manager SO i just need to get off my big butt and get moving, i feel so much better when i do and my days go so much better. I went last night and i slept better and my day went wonderful, NO mommy brain MELT DOWNS!!! which i cant afford. I always thought my proioritys were my family, husbadn everything else in the world and then me somewhere down there. Well i just figured it out that if i dont take care of myself and get my excercise to maintain energy levels and peace of mind i wont be any good at all the other things on my list. So here is my new list

GOD

ME

HUSBAND

CHILDREN

Well the last two are really tie but if i dont tend to the first two i cant do the rest of my list with a happy and joyfull attitude( just ask hubby 

So in the morning i am off to the gym to do my mile since it is an off day from CURVES.

Already then. Today was one of those junk and fasty days Dont get me wrong i was enjoying while eating it but now i am paying for it.

breakfast milk shake strawberry with a banana

at library skipped snack

Fat burger combo for lunch w/ fat fries and a real chocolae oce cream shake ( ok the only thing i enjoyed was the shake)

took a nap and skipped my snack

Jack in the box for dinner, had a chicken club on sour dough NEVER AGAIN did get small though with a sprite

HOLY MOLY!! I just realized i havent drank ANY water today!! Not good. I have 4 hours before bed so i better grab my water bottle and get on it. (will update later)

8 oz of apple juice

for a snack later i will have a banana and apple slices

ok so ine thing i see other then the lack of water is i skipped my snacks. No can do, i need to come up with a plan to make sure snacks are ready to go for the day. Maybe while making breakfast i can cut up my snacks and throw a harvest bar in the fridge, or maybe the night before hmmmmmmm. I will come up with something for me not to forget my snacks or any meals and update that later.

Tomorrow is a CURVES day !! YEAH!! I earned two tickets on my first day on monday, im going for more tomorrow. Ill explain later..........

Well today wasnt a curves day so i did not do anything really physicall. I did go out on an outing with my 3 yr old to the library for a winter activity. So hey atleast i got out of the house and moved a bit.

Tomorrow is a day for curves. I am going to drop chris off at the library for brendans weekly story time. Should be fun and will give him an extra opportunity to get some extra special time with brendan.

I was up bright and early and didnt get a good nights rest so i am feeling really sleepy. I will probably go to bed after I watch the biggest loser i love that show. Well somehow I need to get going on my chores today. I took an afternoon nap with the younger two but it didnt help.